I find myself looking back on my life. Seasonal depression creeping up again... you ever been so alone that you had no one. My family is gone, I burried everyone.
The person I love doesnt feel the same I guess... and all i wanted was o be held and loved... to cry w/ someone perhaps
My whole lifes one big satire in an episode of the twilight zone.
Will i every wake up? or have i succumb to every day of my life being in this version of darkness.
My dreams seem more reality, with the smiling faces greeting me, than the reality that feels more like a nightmare i cant seem to wake up from. Every one avoids me and im truly alone... the calls and texts on my phone are the desperate telemarketers that need to sale the idea of something or the monumental debt that Ive accumlalated over the last 4 years.
Ive made my grave im just waiting to be tossed in and forgotten.
Am I the only one that cried when they wake up to silence or before the leave to work or when theyre alone in this space or when they eat that meal alone or lying down... being reminded no ones there... just the epitome of sadness thats lasted way beyond the season... this year has been the 2nd worst year of my life. maybe next year will be better
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