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Unlike the clouds on a rainy day,why do i not cry tears when i'm sad instead of not at all? question why no matter how much pain i can endure,i truly do not feel it,but only the pain of my heart at risk to be broken is the only thing i hate and yet am scared of, the pain a year ago when my heart was brutally beaten until its last beat, since that day i have not yet once had feelings for another person like i had before.So sadly in a way my heart is dead.So as the clouds cry ,i do not.I am a only but a partial soul as my heart is broken into two.So if you are wondering why i would be smiling its becuase now i don't worry about my heart if someone loves me and i love them the same way then its time to fear to have happiness.But if i wasn't smiling its because of the saddness that my heart cannot love and i'm not sure exactly why.So in some unusual way I'm satisfied not to care about having a date to a dance but mostly friends tha can support me through good and bad times.So truly you only have one heart so don't break it. stare heart