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hnub no kuv tau mus koom kuv tus phooj ywg lub rooj tshoob.. nws muaj ib txoj kev zoo siab kaj siab heev li.. kuv xav kom muaj ib hnub kuv muaj li ntawv.. tabsis kuv paub tias... tej zaum yuav tsis zoo li.. vim kvu tabtom xaiv txoj kev uas yuav tsis zoo li ntawv.. kuv txoj kev uas kuv taug mus ntawv... thaum pib kuv paub yuav muaj ntau lub kua muag yuav tau teev... dhau ntawv.. mam li rhais mus rau lwm yam.. uas kuv tus kheej tsis paub tias yuav zoo los cuav tabsis lub siab yeej tsis pub ntshai vim yuav muaj ib tug nyob ntawm ib sab tiag tiag yuav tsis zoo li tam sim no.. uas tsuas muaj kuv ib leeg nyob ntawm no.. kuv sau li no xwb os..

menyuam hnubci

i woke up, the sky lookes like it just got done raining no wonder i woke up so late today i'm so not in a mood to do stuff right now.. life is so something for me right now.. i don't feel like life right now.. strange feelings i have here so so so strange

again i slept through my day.. my life is getting so boring. i know my mom will soon talk to me about setting goals and everything, but what kind of goals shall i set when right now i can't do anything right. i tried to drive but no one is there to direct me, how do i know i'm doing the right thing?
interesting how my big bro is being nice all of a sudden he do things for us now and look after us now.. i feel bad because when they change to help i change to be lazy.. yikes i'm such a bad sister. sometimes it seems like i only care for myself how they get to be in together and i'm always left out. i'm so bad..
right now i'm playing poker hehehe so bored with my life i'm actually playing poker on facebook. yikes.. i'm not making any from there.. i need to learn how to think optimistic. my friend is so optimistic. i wonder how she can do it. i mean it's so hard to think so positively about everything.. i am such a looser here i go again ahhh!!
oh well.. my new goals is to go to where my fiance is.. i miss him miss him so badly.. my mom always be telling me he's not a true heart person. i would say then why did you hook me up with him at first i mean they tried.. and it work.. now they're so afraid of him breaking my heart.. i will never trust them on hooking me up with another man again.. i'm stopping with this one.. alright.. i'm loosing this poker game sux man... ta ta

always
little sunshine

i remember someone... someone that was just an ordinary guy i met.. it was strange but we were like couples except that we're not couples... he was a fun dude to be with.. he was a cool person.. he was sweet and funny is all i can describe of him.. he was my first date to a party.. he gave me my first dance.. i still remember his warm shoulder.. his broad shoulder.. his tall body.. i had a dream of him this one night and made me miss him.. he's away now.. i don't know how he's doing.. but i hope he's still doing good.. i wonder.. is he marry too.. i wish we can still keep in touch... oh well.. but he was like an awsome guy i met in my life time..

thaum twg kuv xav txog nws kuv lub plawv yuav dhia ceev ceev... thaum kuv xav txog nws kuv lub siab yaj ntshis.. thaum nrog nws ua ke.. zoo siab heev.. thaum nrug deb hnov ib ce xob heev vim xav nrog nws tas li... ua dabtsi los yuav tsum muaj nws nyob hauv kev xav tas mus li. nco txog nws txhua lub sij hawm.. uhm... hnov kuv tus kheej txawv lawm.. tus cwj pwm txhua yam hloov lawm ho ntau.. ua dabtsi los zoo li pheej yuam kev ob peb qho yeeb vim kev xav txog nws. ntawv yog thaum kuv paub tias kuv tau qaug hlub nrog ib tug neeg.

ua ib lub neej nws txawv heev.. tej lub sij hawm ua rau yus tsis xav ua ntxiv lawm.. ua ib lub neej nws txawv heev.. tej lub sij hawm ua rau yus tws kev.. lub neej no nws txawv heev.. tej lub sij hawm ua rau kuv xav quaj xav qw.. lub neej no nws txawv heev.. qee lub sij hawm ua rau kuv tsis pom qab qhia koj tias vim li cas kuv chim chim

VERSE1:
I found somebody new
Though you mustn't believe
That means I'm over you
I know that in time
We'll figure it out
You'll read my mind
And though I'll wait for that day
Without making a sound
I don't want to be
The one who's letting you down
I just want you to know
The reason behind the rhyme

CHORUS:
It's not that
I didn't have the time
Didn't have the love
I didn't have the strength
Not to fall apart
It's not that I don't care
It's just I wouldn't dare
Cause I just don't have the heart

VERSE2:
Love is not black and white
You'd believe that it's true
If you saw me tonight
I struggle with what is real
But the logical side
Doesn't stop what I feel
And though you're holding your breath
To be given a sign
Your heart cannot be
Broken in pieces like mine
I just want you to know
The reason behind the rhyme

CHORUS:
It's not that
I didn't have the time
Didn't have the love
I just didn't have the strength
Not to fall apart
It's not that I don't care
It's just I wouldn't dare
Cause I just don't have the heart

BRIDGE:
Loving you was more than I could stand
I was scared my heart was in your hand
But I know now
I figured it out
Beyond a shadow of a doubt
I must let go

CHORUS:
Yes I had the time
Yes I had the love
I just didn't have the strength
Not to fall apart
It's not that I don't care
It's just I wouldn't dare
Cause I just don't have the heart

I don't have the heart