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hi all,
I hope everyone is doing all-right. I just started this avatar... My last avatar got hacked, although I truly don't understand how. In any case, after asking around about the best way to handle it, a number of people told me the only way to protect my account was to start a new one, and move my items over... it took a good amount of time (i have a lot of piddly items), and I "lost" all my fish in my old aquarium, (and a number of them were brand new! (just "born"!) so it really kind of sucks that I lost them.. and my old aquarium was set up pretty cool. I don't like the way this is looking right now, (to crowded), and a bunch of my fish weren't showing, so I added a couple of fish, only to figure out it was a glitch, so now I have to many fish in there, and to many items... I need to figure out what I am going to do.

okay, that is a LOT for my first entry, i hope i didn't say to much.... I am so honest it can be offensive to some folks.... but hey, you know what you get when you talk with me, cuz I don't ever hide anything- and i never lie. I guess honesty is probably one of the most important traits in the world to me.

Have a great day ya'll, and know I'm having the time of my life- as much as I can~!

The other thing... It took me a long time to get my "house" looking just the way I wanted on the old avatar, and I haven't moved over my house yet.... it is going to take so much work! In addition, my inventory is all screwed up now! Things don't show up in the right section, and I can't get to items from the areas I need to. (like the marketplace doesn't show a lot of items that I should be able to sell, my car doesn't have access to my decals, and paint colors, I have no idea how to fix that...)

As for ME, who I am, and what I am about... I am older than most the people here, I have two kids I love with everything in my heart. They aren't mine by birth, but I "adopted" them when they were tiny, and have been a "surrogate" mom since for a lot of years. I love these two kids with everything in my heart. My daughter just moved out of state to go live with her biological mom for the first time in her life really.... and all I can hope is that she is happy, and that she finally gets the care and love she needs. Her brother still lives with his dad here in town, and I don't get to see him nearly enough... I totalled my car the day after christmas so I can't go see him as much as I want to, or as much as I used to. I have no idea how I am going to afford a car again... I have not been able to work for a long a good length of time due to health issues. I have multiple sclerosis, and I have finally reached "remission", which is a HUGE thing for me. Only about 5% of people with MS can *ever* get into remission, so being able to reach that state is truly awesome for me. I still have a lot of pain issues, but I am not exacerbating (flare-up of symptoms), and my disease is not progressing at this time. (YEAH!!!)

I am starting a company that helps people travel all over the world, at the best prices, and with outstanding service and accomadations. I hope I can earn a living again, and more than that, i hope I can build the kind of life I guess everyone dreams about really...

I moved to this state a number of years ago from Florida. I left most my friends in florida, and due to my circumstances I never did really get as settled here as I was in Florida, and I spent so much time working, that I haven't really built up the relationships that I really want, and truly need in life.

I have been SO SO SO blessed with really good mentors and teachers in my life. If I could do anything for a living, I want to teach experiential classes that help people learn how to set boundaries, how to set and visualize goals, how to live a life of integrity that opens itself to the possiblity and greatness that I truly believe lies in each person. (hokey huh?) But I was lucky enough to go through a similar class when I was 18, and it changed my life. I see people spend their whole lives hurting over things from their childhood, or from damaged relationships in their past- and to help people get over their obstacles and achieve their ideals and their dreams... I can't think of anything more rewarding to do with MY life and my time.

I have an extremely abusive and dysfunctional family (who doesn't?), and all i can say or think is THANK GOD, cuz everything that was really horrible that I have lived through, has made me stronger, more compassionate, or in some way has helped me grow. I miss having a "family" that loves me, and I regret that I did not have kids of my own yet... if I get the chance, I probably still will try to accomplish that, but the longer it takes the less likely I will go down that path.

Not only that, but I have really become accustomed to living alone, and doing what I want with my life and my time. I do hope to find love again, but I am not waiting for that to happen, and there is nothing I will put off in the hopes of what might be, if I can achieve those things on my own NOW.

I have been pretty healthy overall, although I did end up in ICU a few weeks ago, due to pneumonia. That was WIERD! (I have had all kinds of medical crap happen in my life, but this time, i couldn't BREATHE, and that was pretty wild. I can't even express how extreme that experience is....
I am healthy and back home again, my dog is doing okay (getting older as well)... I train service dogs, and I love training animals for fun, and because they increase the quality of life of so many people.

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