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being a leader is something i find the most difficult to comprehend. Oh
the drama oh the responsiblity! It is something i did not want to do
but was asked in which i could not refuse

it is difficult for someone like me a follower, a peace lover, can actually lead people
yes the best things never come free, so in todays world there is no perfect leaders.
I'm sure every leader in history has gone through stress and long days of suffering.
But it is in suffering that we learn and become stronger.

Today i finally gave my first captain speech for cross country. It was the most nervous, fustrating and fearful thing i have ever felt in front of people, but i did it. I gave that speech full of aggression like a lion! rawr! scream
and after that i was afraid how others thought of me afterwards. Then i finally realized,
everybody can't love you, admire you, or respect you. I can't make everybody obey me or like me. That was when i finally realized the feeling of being a true leader, doing what must be done for the best no matter what others think.

Hopefully i can work on my public speaking more thanks to my friends and God. But most importantly its me that has to learn and grow stronger and more confident in myself. Now i see that anybody can be a leader, if she/he has the will and courage to face fear and not run away full of guilt and sorrow. mrgreen

wish me luck!
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