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I know
That although
I have been gone
For too long
There is a special part
Of your heart
That waits for me
To return for eternity
To be your child
Instead of being wild
You sacrificed your life
So that I could be with you for all time
Then I slapped you and left
Now put me to the test
I have returned on my knees
Asking forgive me please

I beg for mercy on my soul
Although I do know
That I sinned against you
I did not know what to do
So I went my way
But on this day
I have returned to the king
For him I will sing
The praises of love
For our God above

In the reservoir of my mind lies the truth
The fact that Christ died for me and you
There is a part of me that hides the other truth
One that grows with all I have been through
Buried in there are old memories of life
The part in my soul that screams why
Why did you put me through this, why?
Why did you make me suffer, why?
Then I remember, it's the only way
I would not know anything today
Would not know why the Lord came
And why my bad luck changed
It was because of your truth
Of the life you gave so I could be with you
And all the pain and torment you went through
That is why deep in my mind there is truth

I come to you Lord, raising bloody Hands
I apologize for killing this perfect Man
I know that I did it, I Understand
I ask for your forgiveness, Lord, Again
I know what I did was not Right
I ask you to forgive me of my sinful Life
I want to get back into the Fight
I know that you forgave me at Sight
I bow my head and bring down my Hands
I look at them now, they've been Cleansed
I thank you Lord for making Amends
I am forgiven for murdering the Son of Man

Momma put a Bible in my glove box
A hot homemade apple pie on the passenger seat
She said you'll always be my baby
And she planted a kiss and a couple tears on my cheek
Dad slipped me some travelin' cash
Threw a map with a highlighted route on the dash
And I realize, as i look back, that
They weren't just saying goodbye
They weren't just seeing me off
They were just making sure that I
Don't forget where I'm from
Go out there and do your family proud son
Momma loved and Daddy worked
And lived their lives just to make sure i know
My way back home
I can still smell Momma's kitchen
And feel every single prayer she says for me
I can point these wheels toward that sunset
Without a fear, without a doubt, Daddy says, "Go for that dream"
I left behind a pie-crumb trail
Just in case I get lost, fall flat, or fail
And if the wind should leave my sail
They weren't just saying goodbye
They weren't just seeing me off
They were just making sure that I
Don't forget where I'm from
Go out there and do your family proud son
Momma loved and Daddy worked
And lived their lives just to make sure i know
My way back home
To that door that's always open
And that light that's always on
To the love that's always waiting
After being gone too long
They weren't just saying goodbye
They weren't just seeing me off
They were just making sure that I
Don't forget where I'm from
Go out there and do your family proud son
Momma loved and Daddy worked
And lived their lives just to make sure i know
I always know, I always know
My way back home
My way back home


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This song means so much to me, because when i do eventually leave home this will truly be me.

See when i leave Mom will truly be crying, and i know that when I do return it will be an open door i find.

This song just give me chills cause its one that means a lot if you read it.

VERSE 1


See that thin red line getting bolder

it's there cause no one told her

She mattered to this world, she is important

Why can't we all be informant?

There's people around us suffering from pain

and all we can think of is our lives to save

See that boy with the red eyes and the hard face

It cause everyone taught him life is a race

Life is life, its something to be lived

yet people want to race, and not give

See the trickle of blood dripping from their hands

now look at your fingers, its on your hands

see the drops of shame fall off to the ground

It's cause ya caused them pain all around

You telling them the worldly image is perfect

but ya never see their mind and how ya hurt it

Trying to force them to be perfect wasn't the way

And that hurt them to where all they can say

is I ain't right I need to finish this pain

Need to wash it all out with some red rain.


HOOK(repeat 2x)


Why ya trying to wash out ya pain with that

Can't ya see that God got ya back?

No need to use the red rain to try to feel

Cause' God gave his son so you can be healed


VERSE 2


Look me in my eyes and tell me that I aint good

Tell me this is what I should look like if I could

See the pain etched on my face reflected in my scars

See it revealing itself through from bleeding parts

Now look me in the face and tell me it's not cause of you

Tell me that I feel this way cause' I choose to

You tell me to be perfect then when I fall short

You string me up with ya words as if they were chord

Ya act as nobody matters but the person you are

But man to God we are equal by far

See my arm with the scars so deep

It's cause of the pain kept me from sleep

You taught me to relieve my stress not face it

So now, every time I get hurt my arm tastes it

That steel as it bites so coldly

And the hatred I feel so boldly

In my mind, I hear the voices claim to me

That worthless, ugly is all I'll ever be

So I try to drown them out with the red rain

Yet all it ever brings is more pain


HOOK(repeat 2x)


Why ya trying to wash out ya pain with that

Can't ya see that God got ya back?

No need to use the red rain to try to feel

Cause' God gave his son so you can be healed


VERSE 3


I hear the screams all around

They escape form mouths tightly bound

Yet I hear the souls crying for light

They know there aint something right

They try to escape into painful bliss

With the sweet taste of a metallic Kiss

Deep in you eyes I see an unspoken pain

One that you try to cover with red rain

You scream each time you get shoved down

Yet you always try to hide ya frown

It aint possible to cover true pain

It aint to easy to hide red rain

When ya was yaself in ya blood

Ya aint receive it from above

See it was Jesus who took ya pain

He gave the true Red Rain

Its time to let go of ya secret life

For with Jesus there is a cleansing light

No need for more self infliction

Jesus is now ya new addiction


HOOK(repeat 2x)


Why ya trying to wash out ya pain with that

Can't ya see that God got ya back?

No need to use the red rain to try to feel

Cause' God gave his son so you can be healed