Please don't be mad after reading this.
We broke up again. Why? You say that it's because your feelings have wained. Yet, even after that you say you still want a life with me.
We met almost 3 years, ago. My god how time has gone by. And through that time I have grown to know you very well. I know your smile, your laughs, your cries. Just about anything except for what you're thinking. You told yourself you weren't pretty but I told you that you were the most beautiful girl I have ever known. You were my little princess and I couldn't stop loving you even if I tried.
Even after you cheated on me more than once. I still stayed with you because I refused to let go. Maybe I'm crazy but I didn't care. My trust for you broke and I was suspicious. Then you left me for another man, the pain was so unbearable I wanted to die. Honestly, I felt like an empty shell with no other purpose except to breathe.
But then you came back and I felt whole again. I praised you with love and showered you with many affectionate gestures. Whether or not you took what I say or did to heart I don't know. You were my princess, my beautiful little princess who I couldn't let go. I would do anything for you, do anything just to see you smile and be happy. Even though I said I didn't trust you, you still said you loved me...god I feel horrible for that.
But now you leave me again, for the same man from before. I refuse to believe that your feelings for me are gone. Elsi, I love you so much. Words cannot describe the joy I get whenever I hear your voice. Whenever I have a bad day just hearing "Zacky!" makes me feel warm and suddenly my problems all go away. Why would I ever want that to stop? Why would you ever want that to stop?
I miss you so much. I wanna hold you Elsi, I wanna kiss your beautiful face and look into your eyes as I utter those heart warming words "I love you".
I'm not forcing you to leave him. I am going to meet you because I made a promise when we first got together that I was gonna meet you. Thats a promise I don't aim to break.
I love you Elsi. I love you, my little princess. Always have, and always will.
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