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of course, why do i always have to feel like this why me? it hurts so bad. i know theres a bright side beyond all this, but its hard to find. why is it that whenever i really need a friend dustin bails on me? hes not answering his phone or aim. im really down and need a friend. this isnt ok. i am so tired of feeling helpless like this. and im tired of having to rely on someone who is never there when i need him to be. the other day while he was at work i asked himfor 5 minutes of his time. dustin just told me had to go wouldnt stay hungup and didnt call me for 6 hours. i only heard from him then because i called him. im really feeling alone in this relationship its hard to be with someone when they dont seem to have your best interest at heart. i was choking and couldnt breathe, he didnt even situp to see if i was ok. it was awful. it made me feel really low. hes been making me feel that way alot lately. i dont know what to do.