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Head over heels in love with the most wonderful girl in the world heart I'm high on love hehe...I'm so lucky to have her in my life... biggrin
"I'm in love and I feel like spreading my wings to fly" - the only line of this one song i wrote in the 7th grade that i still remember....

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I'm kinda bored...man, I had a dream the other night and I did NOT want to get up...it sucked when I woke up...grrr...i want my Caremate (for those of you who have NO idea what I'm talking about my Caremate is my Soul Mate whoz name is Cari...hence the name Caremate...tehe...) But yea...um....bored...and want gold...lol...

Ok, so the whole Amber thing...heh, we're friendz again and have been for the past like 3 monthz. No breakz or anything. Granted I still want her in that "i wanna make her scream" way but eh..at least I'm not in love with her anymore. I mean suuure I still get jealous and s**t but whatever thatz just me. I'm a very jealous person. As for prom we're going together, as friends. We're thinking of doing a group thing but shez gunna dance with me, I'll make sure of it. Well, i guess thatz all for now...nothing big going on in my life so w/e. Latez 4 now

ok, so i miss her! I miss amber like heck man. I miss her companionship. W/o her i'm so eh...i'm a loner at skool, but it that way. so ehh...idk...

Man. I swear, so much has been lifted off. Does that make sense? I mean without Amber i have a hell of alot less stress than last year. I mean even my 10th grade english teacher can tell exclaim She was saying that last year i was all ugh and this yr i'm doing alot better. I told her i was in an unhealthy relationship and she agreed that that can take alot outa me. I remember reading an article in a magazine saying that keeping a big secret and stressing out can take a toll on you energywise. Hell after i read that i was like 'damn, no wonder i did so bad last year!' lol. Man my spanish teach asked me about her today cuz we had class 2gether last yr. I told her we werent friends ne more he was like 'what happened?' i said she was just too much drama and even worse with her b/f. Besides, i'm better off without her. Itz funny though how to everyone who didnt really know us thought we were perfectly happy together, man if only they had known everything that went on behind closed doors. I told my mom today too that we werent friends nemore. I told her the same thing i told my spanish teach, she was TOO much drama. She's all like 'I told you'. See, my mom NEVER liked her. From the VERY begining. everyone told me she wasnt good for me, but i never listened. Learned my lesson the hard way. However, there will always be somelove for her. Once i love someone i cant hate them. I'll always love her. Thatz just how it is but i wont fall for her tricks again. I was practicing in one of the little rooms by my music class today and it was the same room i first saw amber. I was amazed i remembered. I'm just happy it doesnt hurt anymore. And well maybe someday down the road we can at least be civilized to each other and say "Hi" once we pass each other in skool.

Anyways, lookz like i wrote and essay, heh. whee Thatz all for now. Take Care All.

So, guess wat? I may already have a prom date!!!hehe smile I'm so happy. Her name is Nalleli and she is gorgous!! I hate to say it but...i think i love her...seriously. And that scares me to death. I'll write more about this some other day. I'm really tired right now so yea....