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Hey, it's me.
I wasn't able to quit smoking... again. I've been sorta beating myself up about it. Not to mention I'm also ruminating about things that I have no control over, like the whole thing that happened with those lolita girls over a year ago, and the fact I'm not in contact with my karaoke friends anymore, and the awful truth that is my dad having Alzheimer's... along with the whole ex best friend thing.
Is there a good way to stop worrying about things like this? Like, meditation or therapy or whatnot. I don't know. I just wish the weird dreams and waking up in the middle of the night worrying would stop.
But I did have a good thing happen, I saw an old friend of mine for the first time in months yesterday. We had fun. And my cat Torra is doing good. I dunno, I guess there are things to be grateful for but the worries just seem overpowering right now. Stupid Coronavirus! sad
I wish things could just go back to being happy again... sigh. I guess that's all from me for now, thanks for listening.