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Well, it seems as if im depressed, i don't get upset very often, really i don't remember when i last cryed, it was a while ago i remember that...
I don't really do journals fpr privet meaning, i think that if you have a journal to express yourself it should be for other people to see, read and talk to you about it, in this case i don't need anyone to talk about it...
I love all my real friends dearly, don't get me wrong about anything written negitivly about my friends.

I can find a lot of flaws in my friends, but the exchange of ignoring them is your flaws being ignored as well, right? Well these days with a few of my so called friends, i have found a few flaws, that i of course ignore, but it seems that i cant, I've tried and they seem to just find a way to bring it out in a way where i cant forgive that flaw, i don't really know what to do. Cause when ever i try to show them their flaw they seem to know and make me feel better by fixing that flaw for a short amount of time. Should i keep this friend or not? I seem to get mad at her too easily now-a-days.

Also, on of the people who a have been calling 'Friend' for about 5 yeas now has acctuy made m depressed, i don't really wanna talk about how, but it includes me knocking on the door for about 10 mins and no one there... Yesterday was SUPOST to be our last B-day party together untill he moves to B.C. I would have dearly missed him but today i find myself thinking ' I hope he goes this time (He has said this a few times, and not moved yet) and i hope he makes friends that cant find a flaw in him, and i hope he's happy, but i wish that he would feel bad for not getting a blessing for leaving from one of his dearest so-called-friends" This is a friend i cant say that i love dearly anymore....

Also for me this is an important year for me, I'm going from Middle school to high school, I'm not going to th same HS as my friends either, I made this choose cause i know if i stay with them I'm going to become attached, and that is something i dont want to happen, i need to be free, i need to meet more people and find someone that i can really like, and not get mad at, i want this person to have to same flaws as me, i want them to love me the way i am for all my likes and dislikes, i want that person who i can argue with but end u making up over something stupid. I want it, and at this point in my life, i really need it.