Poem with out a name:
I hate new things, just because I can never have them,
I hate new people, because I know they will soon leave me.
I hate to get close to someone, because I know they will break my heart.
I don't like to meet someone when I already have somebody, because I know, I will have to break someone else's heart.
I don't like to be labeled because then people only see me as one thing, instead of all the things I am.
I don't like to be treated the same when I know I am different.
I don't like to be around people, because that is when I feel alone.
I don't like to talk freely, frightened of the thought, of saying something wrong.
I hate family gatherings, and reunions because they make me see just what I mean to everyone there, nothing.
When its me and one other person, I feel like I am important, but as soon as another comes by, I am pushed away and almost made to be invisible.
When there is someone I want to get close to and spend some time around, they don't even remember my name.
Nobody truly wants to be around me, because they think I'm not worth there time, nor am I cool, or popular in anyones eyes.
I want to be wanted, and need to be loved.
But right now, there is nobody who wants to hold me in there arms.
I hate being alone, and I hate to be crowded, I just want that one special person, or those select few people to be by my side and help me threw this.
I want my family to notice me more, and yet I want them all to leave me alone.
Why am I so complicated?
And why am I such a mess?
I have so many questions, questions that no one can actually answer.
I feel like I will be alone forever, and never get to experience true love.
So I pray for everyone else's happiness instead of my own.
Because I don't think, that wish will come true for me.
Not as long as I hate new things, and I hate new people.
As long as I feel the way I do, I will never be truly happy.
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ok this is just completly random so yeah ^.^ .
I am not always random and If you want to know more about me read my journal ^.^
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