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Artist: Orgy
Album: Punk Static Paranoia
Title: Leave Me Out

I know you don't mind
Invading my space, just lave me alone
[get you're a** off the phone]
Just because you think I'm wasting your time
I'm losing my mind again, let's get this started

I think I'm losing my mind this time
With the drama ypu create all the time
Look up heard your worlds a mess
Now you're out of my head from the lack of respect

Suffer the aftermath
If you pass the test then you pass the class
And I know you'll never find out the reason
The reason why, why
Don't need this pain
That keeps ******** with me in my life
Leave me out of it
Forget about this pain that keeps ******** with my in my life

Leave me out of it
So leave me out of it
Leave me out of it
So leave me out of it

I think I'm losing my mind this time
With the drama ypu create all the time
Look up heard your worlds a mess
Now you're out of my head from your lack of respect

Suffer the aftermath if you pass the test then you pass the class
And I know you'll never find out the reson
The reson why, why
Don't need this pain
That keeps ******** with me in my life
Leave me out of it
Forget about this pain that keeps ******** with me in my life
Leave me out of it
So leave me out of it

this guy named eddie is hott!

Butterflies
I stand silent,
I stand still,
A jar within my hand.
Waiting for the butterfly that soon will be mine. snatch it from the air,
And close the lid on top.
I run into the kitchen and put it on the counter top,
Watching as the little thing moves about, a flip and a flop.
Yet then something chills my back whispering, murmuring, in my ear,
All the time saying, "Nothing beautiful can grow here."
I shove it off and try to ignore the sound that always attacked before.
I walk upstairs and try to sleep,
yet its long to come but when it does,
It's so very deep.
The sunlight Dances upon my lashes telling me to wake,
Then I smile and run down to find my fatal mistake.
The butterfly, it's body, no longer in the air.
The soul had dashed of in the night, leaving the body there.
Then the sound ever creeping, silently starts me weeping,
whispering murmuring, speaking to me in fear,
" Nothing beautiful can grow here."
I go outside and take off the top,
the body, it would only drop,
to the ground and it would stay there,
No longer with the others in the air.
I sit in the darkness of the room,
That always seems to consume me with gloom.
I look through the boarded up windows, And watch as the butterflies float about.
I shut my arms and let my hand reach out for the sanity that is not there
all the time hearing, that whispering and jeering, venomous voice say in my ear,
saying, whispering, murmuring, "Nothing beautiful can grow here."

..I couldn't stop the bleeding. I didn't want to die. I only wanted to stop hurting, and cutting relieved my inner pain for a few moments...

instead of cutting....
am i aloud to cry?
instead of sitting in a graveyard digging my grave...
am i aloud to cry?
instead of hiding my feelings and being depressed....
am i aloud to cry?
instead of putting a knife to my neck....
am i aloud to cry?
instead of having tears runing down my face for no reason...
is it okay to cry?
more like will i ever cry.

Some people might know who i really am.......
i never asked for help. Mitch if u know who i am. it would be nice to help...

even if i stopped...
i still wake and see my scars...
i cry everyday because of seeing them...
why wont they dissapear!!!
does he up there want me to feel this way!
everytime i ask for help..
he never answers me back...
i lost my love for him...
am i a sin!!!!!! ::silence::
why wont he forgive me...::tears run down her face::
for what ive done...::falls to the ground crying::

the pain hurts so much...
that is dissapeared....
the pain made my feeling go away...
my heart is gone...
it left awhile ago...
wil...
it ever come back?..

all i see is darkness in my rose garden....
all i have left of my heart is ash.......
i thought i was together....
but im still in peices....
what am i saying im normal...
right?
i feel nothing, somone help me...
please!
is it normal for me to have scars on my wrist's.......
and cry everyday....
is it?

when i slit my wrist........
my heart cries in tears with it.