|
Oops I Did It Again - Monthes Later
So i left this jourrnal thing for a few monthes. And your point? Im not gonna feel badd for not updating your nosy self! Lols just playin. I guess I'll start by talking about Freshamn year. razz .Wow. Is the only word to describe that 10 month journey of misery ; of joy and laughs ; of lust and passion or of pure embarrasment. This past year was so different from others. It feels as though Im a whole new person. New friends but still trying to hold on to the old ones I have , new love , new grades ( sad ) etc. , My grades went down , I developed a "i dont give a ********" attitude somehow. Everything moved so quickley without the thought of the outcome. I made dumb descions and I was constantly on punishment. This whole new perosn , i didnt understand at first. Was it an act or was it really and truly who i had come to be? Every little descion I made , had come to be a big one. and coincedently I always chose the bad descions. I called myself having a boyfriend since february. right now we're on the verge of calling it quits. I dont want to let go. I dont wanna say goodbye to the boy i first kissed , the boy i first had that thign with which really wasnt the thing it was just like close to it but not really what the thing is but anyways. I actually failed a class for the first time in my life. I started to go downhill slowly and I didnt care. My life was passing me by and all I cared about was Me , myself and I.
|
