I've been thinking a lot about boys this summer... one of my friends confessed his feelings for me in my year book on the last day of school, but I didn't read it until I got home... and I don't really like him as more than a friend. I mean, he's a cool guy, but I just don't think he's... boyfriend material, or at least, not my type, anyway. Now I don't know what I'll do when I go back to school... I don't want to crush him completely... I can't lose him as a friend... that would be horrible! At the same time, I'm completely confused about what I want when it comes to this other guy... I like him as more than a friend, but at the same time, I just want to stay friends... I guess my worst fear is losing him as a friend... I've liked him for the longest time and I still haven't told him. I don't want to scare him! It still seems kinda weird that I like him, but I've kinda gotten used to it... at one point, I had a hunch that he might have liked me back, but if he did, I don't think he does now because things have changed... back to the way they were before all this, except I still feel a bit uncomfortable because I want to tell him so badly! grr, this is my dilema. I don't know what I want anymore, that's why this is so hard for me.
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