Finally as well. O_o
My laptop broke down a few days ago - again. And even though it didn't affect me much, I was still rather depressed that it broke down like that. >> Turned out that the harddrive was too old, so my dad had to change it - and now he changed it, this internet is now quite slow. ._. But ah well. Better slow with internet rather than no laptop at all, eh?
Anyhow, I got a PM from gamecube professional today. Not from Gaiaonline, of course.. but from that old site - from fanfiction.net. I must say, I really really should write down what happened in ff.net eleven months ago or I won't feel at ease. It's such an old life and an old memory - too old for someone to understand, but I can remember the events as though it was yesterday. The Knights.. the Empire.. Kaiser Scott, "Blades", the Clones. Heck, this sounds like something off from Star Wars - I'm surprised that it turned out that way as well.
But anyway, he contacted me after being separated for ten/eleven months.. and I replied. I don't really regret doing so even though I have promised myself never to come to that point of madness again.. but I must know what he wants from me after all this time. To go back to that site? To go back to the Knights? And perhaps... face Kaiser Scott again after all those lifetime insults he had given me?
I don't know what I should do if he asks me to return to the Knights. I'm forever scarred with the memory and from Scott - I don't think I have forgiven him for those insults he threw at me a year ago. It sounds extreme.. especially because I never hold grudges - but his insults hurt and they still do now. Exactly what Kaiser Scott said to me shall only be known to me and him and nobody else. That is a promise.
Why?
Because it hurts too much to even say it, never mind recall it.
End entry,
Rino-chan. ^^
 Rino-chan · Wed Jun 13, 2007 @ 06:30pm · 0 Comments |
