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Love... I have been in the process of trying to figure out if I am actually falling in love with Jon... And the thing I realized while I was sitting here is that I would actually give up anything in my life that I wanted in order to spend the rest of my life with him. He doesn't want to get married and he doesn't want to have kids. I want to get married and I want to have kids. But I would actually be willing to forgoe the kids in order to spend the rest of my life with him. Anything just to be able to wake up with him every morning...anything to continue to feel like someone actually cares about me. I would give up anything just to be with him. It was something I just realized. It's the oddest sensation, this realization. I've never thought I'd be willing to make concessions like that...but I don't care. I just want him. Things will work out the rest of the way. And I don't feel that panic about the fact that I need to make sure to keep him interested in me...I just feel like we will continue along life together... I dunno. It's weird. I can't really describe it. Does this makes sense??? What is happening to me??????

Posted by: wilderness.magic Mon May 02, 2005 @ 08:34pm

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Commented on: Mon May 02, 2005 @ 09:27pm


	Sounds a lot like love to me. biggrin heart But even when I was in love I wasn't thinking about marriage or kids or giving up things for him. I just knew that I loved him, as a friend, as a person and as a man. I even knew that we wouldn't be together forever, I just knew I loved him. I'm very cynical and cautious about things like "the rest of my life" or marriage or kids. The way I think is probably different than the way you think.

Commented on: Mon May 02, 2005 @ 09:31pm


	Probably is true. I worry about the future too much, which is odd, since I don't want to get married for a long time. It is just one of those things where I am realizing I never want to let him go. I don't want him to ever find anyone else. Because he is one of those rare guys who I think would do anything for me, and I'd do anything for him now. It really does sound like love, doesn't it?? Sigh It is wondrous.

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Commented on: Mon May 02, 2005 @ 09:56pm


	congrats! biggrin heart i am truly happy for u, i think i have fallen in love too so good luck to us both

Commented on: Mon May 02, 2005 @ 11:54pm


	Jester 42: Thank you so much! I am really hoping things work out...and good luck to you too!

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Commented on: Sat Jun 25, 2005 @ 05:45am


	I agree w/ Nazi Halo and yes congradulations I am so happy for you.

Commented on: Sat Jul 02, 2005 @ 12:23am


	jene-chan: Every day I find myself falling more and more in love with him. My only worry is that he will one day discover I am not as wonderful as he once thought I was and I will lose him, which would be so devastating to me. I don't think I could survive without him by my side. I love him so much.

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Commented on: Sat Jul 02, 2005 @ 01:17am

Commented on: Tue Jul 12, 2005 @ 10:05pm


	nothing is happening to you. you're just in love like i am. biggrin heart

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Commented on: Fri Dec 29, 2006 @ 12:35am


	lol. .it definitely makes sense.. and yea, it's love right there. Let's just say that his views on kids may change in the future.. both of you are still young. but i do hope everything works out (right here, I have to read on to find out blaugh lol) Because when i meet people who has fallen in love and know that that person is right for them, i hope that they will stay together forever because I hate the relationships I see today... where it's like a game to most.. just get together and break up.. what kind fo relationship is that? confused So, i wish you both happiness! heart

Commented on: Sat Dec 30, 2006 @ 10:02pm


	Thanks everyone for the well wishes! Starluvr: I know. I love him dearly. And it is true...I'd give up a lot to be with him. And I still feel the same way. Kids are something we'd figure out later. It's too early to consider that.

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