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I've had a really bad day. It started off okay but it seems that I'm nothing but bad luck and bad news. The bad day started when my dad, my step-mom, my brother, and me went to this concert thing at the retirment home. I love to see my grandma because she looks so excited to see me, but today I couldn't hug her or get too close to her because she has a highly contagious infection sad So I tried to sit back and enjoy the concert. Everything was okay (except that the vision in my left eye was blurry, but don't worry it's better now) the band was playing one of my favorite songs 'Brown Eyed Girl' and my family tried to get me to dance but I didn't want to make a fool of myself so I refused. When to concert was done my dad and step-mom stayed to help clean up and they said that we could walk home if we want (we live only a few blocks away from the retirment home). So my brother and me started walking home and I asked him if he wanted to skip home and he mumbled something I couldn't really understand and then yelled "Tag you're it!" and started running. I decided that playing a game of tag would be nice so I ran after him. I guess our game of tag turned into a race when a girl by-stander was cheering me on saying "You can beat him! Come on!" That really made me feel good whee whee whee So we're running for a few blocks and my brother is getting tired and starts walking. I'm getting a little tired to but try not to show it and keep running. So when we're only a block away form the house my brother cuts across someone's lawn just so he can win the race evil evil evil evil I'm really pissed off that he always has to beat me at everything. So I call him a p***y and a coward for cheating just to beat his little sister. Of course he doesn't care what I'm saying. So I try to forgive and forget the cheating but when I try and get in the house he is blocking the door stressed evil stressed evil stressed evil stressed evil I must be as strong as him because I was able to push the door open but as soon as I did he gave me this 'I'm gonna kick your a** look'. I've seen that look before and it's always before he hurts me. So I'm really frighted and start walking away from the house. As soon as I heard him call my name I start running. As I'm running I'm crying and I really hate crying in public. So I ran to the church when I'm there I calm down a little and start slowly walking back to the house. I must have been really slow because by the time I got back it was night (it was just sunset when I starting running). I was expecting to get in trouble when I got home but my step-mom just wanted to know where I had been and I told her that I just needed to take a little walk around to block. I tried to avoid my brother when I got home and it worked smile We even made small talk 3nodding I know that he dosen't like me to hang around him when he's on the computer so I was watching TV downstairs. He came downstairs and I asked him why he suddenly wanted to be downstairs with me, and his response was, "Because I can. Don't tell me what to do this is my ******** house." I was a little in awe because I wasn't telling him what to do I was just asking him a question and it wasn't even his house he lives with my dad and step-mom. So I told him that I wasn't his house and I started to leave then he said, "Is baby going to cry?" That really pissed me off and offended me because I didn't do anything to deserve that comment. So I told him that if he ever talks to me like that again he's going to get his a** kicked when he comes to Chicago. He's response was, "Blah, blah, blah." Now I'm really pissed off evil evil evil But I don't let me emotions get the best of me. I just said, "You're getting your a** kicked when you come to Chicago." Then I went upstairs to my room. I swear to God if he comes to Chicago and disrespects me like that I'm going to get my stronger friends to kick his a**! I've been putting up with this s**t for years now and I'm sick of it evil evil evil evil evil evil evil evil evil evil I never get any respect and everybody treats me like a nobody. I can't take it anymore gonk gonk gonk