I was feeling mixed emotions as i watched damian singing my words. All at once i was happy to see hannah moving on and jealous cause i wanted to sing with her and mad cause those were my words, my feelings and sad cause i wanted to feel the music through out my body again. but i cant and she can and i shouldn't hold her back. i couldn't stand watching it any more, couldn't help but get jealous and i didnt want to be jealous any more so i dance i dance and i dance id probably look foolish if any one could see me. with my legs moving again i can dance so i do. i fumble and fall all over the place but i keep on moving i keep on dancing. i felt stupid i felt immature i felt alive. wait what am i kidding. i fall. i'm not alive i'm not dancing, no one can see me. i am dead. i am a vampire who's heart was pierced by a wooden stake. who am i kidding, pretending to feel, pretending to know. I'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i scream the words as damian sung "seize fire". I am probably crying but what would i know i cant feel a thing. no love? no hurt? but then what am i feeling now. i thought dead people couldn't feel at all. then what is this pain the pain that was shooting through my heart. what is this hannah? what have you done to me? why am i so in love with you? why can't i let you go? well i'm going to have to now, cause now i'm dead.
 zssser · Thu Oct 18, 2007 @ 02:09pm · 0 Comments |
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