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Theres nothing left of them here, but the memories of them all here.
They are all gone........
Dorochet....Martel.....Loa....Bido....Ulchi.....Doc....Blondie.....Greed.....
I miss them all so much.
But yet again in the disaster I am still alive.
My heart has yet to stop beating even though it is broken.

This room which is filled with the smell of death.
My chimera breathren are all gone.
The man who claimed my heart is gone.
I .....am the last one standing.

I can't live like this anymore.
I've seen everyone i ever loved die in front of me.
Since my love is gone, i have no reason to live.
Theres nothing left for me.
I am alone......

I hang this rope high and I leave a letter for the people who find me dead.
'Please don't pity me. I wanted it to end'
is what that paper says.
The rope is tight and it rubs my neck raw.
It pains so much, but its nothing compared to the pain in my heart.
Just one kick of this chair away and it is all over.

Kick
Snap

.....no....no...No...No! NOOOOO!!!!!
Damn this s**t to Hell!
Why?! Why can't I just die!
Why is it everytime i try to end this horrible pain something interupts it!
This damn rope was just fine at first.
Why did it snap into two?

This pain just wants to stay.
There is no ending it for me.
A gun.....yes....A gun should be quick and easy.

This peice of metal should do the trick.
End it all at one moment.
Six bullets. I only need on.
I'll play Russian Roullate.
But there is no way for me to win.

One....T-Two.....Thr-
Bido?! Your alive?!
What do you think I am doing?!
Their gone!
He's gone!
What more is there for me to do?!

Greed?....
Yes...I know he wouldn't want me to do it.
But...Bido....I can't go on....
I can't live without him.
please...let me do this...
please...
........please.......

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I''ve been wanting to do this for a while
In the RP me and Olivia are doing Greed IS alive.
But everyone knows he dies in the manga and anime so i wanted to write how Lena would react after his death.
Yes, she gets fed up with lingering around the Devil's Nest. She watched everyone die in front of her.
She thought Bido was dead.
He is alive right now in the manga. so yeah, i included him in this.
Lena has been through alot in life. All she wants to do now is die. But every time she tries something either saves her or interuppts her.
Any questions?