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To think it would take me around eight years to realize that not all guys are bad. It took a couple of guyfriends to break that to me. Needless to say I want to try to date but right now I'm just not ready for that big looming commitment thing. I know I'm not sure of myself yet and that's the way I am today. Guys like me for me. Not just because I have big blue eyes or just happen to be single. I realize that there are guys out there worth waiting for and I'll wait a hundred years for the one that wants me. That's my one problem. I could wait forever and not know that the guy who really loves me is right under my nose. So talk to me if you want to. I know how to keep a conversation going. The only thing I ask is that you just be my friend first. Be up front and honest with me even though I'll admit I've got my own set of secrets. Everyone does. That doesn't mean that there's something wrong with you. I'm ready for someone to be there for me everyday and that's what I'll expect. I'll be extremely sad if you aren't there and might veer away from you. That's the way I'm going to be right now until I've had enough experiences to walk in a relationship and be serious about it. Don't call me beautiful, even if I am. I want to hear that I'm loved for a reason. Beauty is such a shallow thing, and I am not a shallow person. So now you know...and I know too what I want and need.