Do you wanna know my new saying??? Life is just a game... And that's what I tell myself when I get upset now... Life is just a game in which I play a part in... Heh, I can feel myself putting up walls again... The walls that I finally broke down in, I think it was 5th grade... Well, I guess I've always had walls up around me... To protect me from pain... But it's not like it helped, though I guess it did alittle...
Now it's just me, and everyone else who isn't me... Right now, I'd say that there isn't anyone on the inside of the walls that I now have up... And I feel so alone... I keep on turning to my favoritist anime/manga right now... Ouran Highschool Host Club... Yah, I know the characters aren't real... But there's certain things about each character that helps me out alot if I think about it... I just don't know what else, besides music, that can help me at this point...
And I just don't know what to do about my friends... I don't want them to get hurt... I still care about each and every one of them alot... But I feel like what I say to them is nonchalant... I really don't care... I mean, I guess I could act alright... But that is getting harder to do as well... Depends on what's on my mind at the time... But I'm just so confuzed...
Uhhh... Okay... I'm not really sure what else to put in this journal entry... So I guess I'm done...
Now it's just me, and everyone else who isn't me... Right now, I'd say that there isn't anyone on the inside of the walls that I now have up... And I feel so alone... I keep on turning to my favoritist anime/manga right now... Ouran Highschool Host Club... Yah, I know the characters aren't real... But there's certain things about each character that helps me out alot if I think about it... I just don't know what else, besides music, that can help me at this point...
And I just don't know what to do about my friends... I don't want them to get hurt... I still care about each and every one of them alot... But I feel like what I say to them is nonchalant... I really don't care... I mean, I guess I could act alright... But that is getting harder to do as well... Depends on what's on my mind at the time... But I'm just so confuzed...
Uhhh... Okay... I'm not really sure what else to put in this journal entry... So I guess I'm done...
