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Why!!???Why do i get anger so quick. It eating me up. On every littel thing i explode. If eth teacher doesn't let us go outside for recess i get pissed, if my mother makes me wash teh dishes i get pissed. If some one bothers me i get pissed. Usually i wouldn't get pissed if someone was botherin mebut these days i don't know wat happens to me. BUt i don't let my self cry. not even a tear let outta my eye. If they start to water when i'm mad. i just turn around wipe it away and think. I don't want to cry this year. not at all. Crying has made me too sensitive. Even last night when faiza came over(my mom don't leik her comin over) i told her . and she was leik i'm leavin y didn't u tell me. I even got pissed on tht. i didn't do tht 2 days ago. i donno wats wrong. Nothing big realii happened to me. Last night I told farheen to come over a 9 cyz me and faia and saniyah and farheen were supposed to fool around we do it every friday. but farhenn dicides to come at 11. I would usually be liek yea yea yea u had something to do, w/e well now come and sit down. thst wat i would usually say, but last night I donno wat happend to me and when she came up I was leik u know u could have stayed home and i didn't even bother tellin her to come back or i didn't go after her. sad Oh , friday when english class started we had a spelling test and sab asked how many lines to skip after one word cuz she usually give sentences too. and Atikah was pissed she thought tht was stupid to ask. maybe a little but nothing to get pissed at. So alli sadi was tht it wasn't a question to get pissed at and it was and okay question cuz she usually gives sentences. For some reason she got pissed when i said tht. I thought tht was wrong cuz everytime she has a question and so does some one else she goes on and on abt her question and when teh other person starts to talk she wants them to shut up. Tht's not rite and i didn't know she started cryin after tht and when neilab told me all I said was "it's not fault'.... those are teh excat words I said. I felt soo stupid after i realized tht. last night i got pissed cuz i wasn't feelin good. And usually when my sisters or mom don't feel good I do their chores for them. lats night my head and leg were killing me, but no one cared. They made me wash teh dishes ad would come back to bother me!! tht ticked e off. This hasn't happened just once or twice or three times, it's happened more tahn enough. Oh great when I wake up in teh mornn my anger still isn;t gone. Usually i end up forgetiin w/e hapeened last night, but rite now I can't. I think it's because I'm pissed at shani. He;s such a loser. He says he loves but doesn't act as if he does. well w/e I've never liked him. i onlii liked him as a freind but he always said he loved. Now we just stopped talkin I dono y. and it feels weird
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