Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

 
 

View User's Journal

··¤(`×[¤(¯`•¸·´¯)Ïñ§åñé¤Ð®êåMè®(¯`·¸•´¯)¤]×´)¤··
My thoughts, My Ideas, MyLife..... wow lots my "My" ehh.. scarii. Well w/e i write would prolly be something goofy or a poem or just a thought neded to be blurted out.
MyHomieGrl [6:28 PM]: wats up?
RSputnik8 [6:29 PM]: nm u?
MyHomieGrl [6:29 PM]: just finished eating and drawin
RSputnik8 [6:29 PM]: is drawing like ur thing?
MyHomieGrl [6:29 PM]: i guess
MyHomieGrl [6:29 PM]: i dono
MyHomieGrl [6:30 PM]: lol
MyHomieGrl [6:30 PM]: so is realii loud music on headphones
MyHomieGrl [6:30 PM]: so tht my head shakes on the inside
RSputnik8 [6:31 PM]: thats bad
RSputnik8 [6:31 PM]: go deaf
MyHomieGrl [6:31 PM]: it's ok
MyHomieGrl [6:31 PM]: i'm tired oof ppl anyways
MyHomieGrl [6:31 PM]: so
MyHomieGrl [6:31 PM]: it don't matter
RSputnik8 [6:33 PM]: lol
MyHomieGrl [6:33 PM]: seriously
MyHomieGrl [6:33 PM]: and i'm gonna o deaf listening to my favorite music
MyHomieGrl [6:33 PM]: thst the best part
RSputnik8 [6:33 PM]: lol
MyHomieGrl [6:34 PM]: yeaaa
MyHomieGrl [6:34 PM]: ok
MyHomieGrl [6:34 PM]: hows tht funi
MyHomieGrl [6:34 PM]: i wanna laugh
MyHomieGrl [6:34 PM]: ?
MyHomieGrl [6:34 PM]: i haven't laughed in a long time
MyHomieGrl [6:34 PM]: it feel slonely
RSputnik8 [6:34 PM]: lol u have shameer
MyHomieGrl [6:34 PM]: i wish i had somoene
MyHomieGrl [6:34 PM]: lol




wats wrong with me?? I mena I have everyone I need, everyone is here. I know they are, but what was tht about. I donno why I was talking like that??!! It was just outta no where. I mean I was peacefully eatin and jokin around tht, but before tht I drawing i made didn't feel ike just a simply fatasyy thought. I felt more. I felt as if I was reaching for something..... donno wat. .......


RSputnik8 [6:36 PM]: yea
RSputnik8 [6:41 PM]: y do u wish u had som1?
MyHomieGrl [6:41 PM]: i donno
MyHomieGrl [6:41 PM]: just gets lonely osmetimes
MyHomieGrl [6:41 PM]: sometimes*
RSputnik8 [6:42 PM]: so u need som1 to not feel lonely? what if they went to a trip to austrailia?
RSputnik8 [6:42 PM]: then what/
RSputnik8 [6:42 PM]: ?
MyHomieGrl [6:42 PM]: i donno
MyHomieGrl [6:42 PM]: i don't acre
MyHomieGrl [6:42 PM]: i just need somoene rote now
MyHomieGrl [6:42 PM]: and i know i have everyone
MyHomieGrl [6:42 PM]: but
MyHomieGrl [6:42 PM]: i feel as if i need some ONE
RSputnik8 [6:43 PM]: oh i get it some ONE
MyHomieGrl [6:44 PM]: i mean it's someone but i donno who it is
MyHomieGrl [6:44 PM]: but it's just a one



The question keps on going!!! Wh ois it?? I know I have every one I need but It's this felinng inside me thts killin me. I don't get it. I just have these continouse mood atacks. Like before I was drawing tht picture I was happy and listening to music realii loud, and whnevere I do tht(which is often) I feel liek drawing. So I took out a blank sheet of paper and pastels and just went on drawing. and when i finished I liekd it, but then sat ther lookin at it and realized tht i wasn't just havin fun. I let something out but wat was it. i can't tell. i donno wat I let go, but whatever it was. I want it back. i want to rip this stupid drawin, but then wat if I loose my answer with it......... It's killin me!!!. I'm not gonna cry. Wow I said tht last time and I srtaed cryin liek hell but stopped my self after 20 secounds Cuz I rememberd wat I had promised myself. I'm gonna go to sleep befpr emt dad gets home. i donno y but I want to.
Who ir wat did I let go, and WHY do I want it back?? Too many questions. But I'm not gonna






User Comments: [1] [add]
fromtheunknown94
Community Member
avatar
commentCommented on: Thu Jan 17, 2008 @ 03:26am
>.> i kno wat u mean well not entirely to be honest.

But maybe there's someone who's went missing from ur life, and u just wish everything was the way it was....

but look at ur drawing if u think thats where the answer is. Look at everything at all angles and connect the colors and shapes and thickness of lines to ur feelings.

What have u been feeling lately?

and if u truly do kno the answer in your heart, and not in ur head, then be honest with urself, that just might be the reason why you feel so lonely.

And feeling lonely means ur feeling empty right..

did the song emotionless get to u?? the way it got to me?

ummm sweatdrop uhh is there someone you really luv but don't kno what to do?

or do u just want to be loved?

maybe ur tired of hearing the same old everyday..... maybe u want to do new things and experience new people.....

thats all i got so far...

I heart u

we're part of the big ball of cheee biggrin

i think its better chatting with u about this rather than a comment.. comments always make me feel like i'm talking to myself.


User Comments: [1] [add]
 
 
Manage Your Items
Other Stuff
Get GCash
Offers
Get Items
More Items
Where Everyone Hangs Out
Other Community Areas
Virtual Spaces
Fun Stuff
Gaia's Games
Mini-Games
Play with GCash
Play with Platinum