As I have mentioned before, I'm sick. Now I feel bad because the sickness has spread to my mom. It will hit my sisters in due time, just wait.
And let's also add on the fact that there were about fifteen ladies at our house the other day for a party my mom had. I probably gave it to about half those ladies.
I return to school tomorrow. After leaving early on Friday, I'm not exactly eager to get back and become bombarded with homework. Catching up isn't something I'm very good at.
I have also realized that as I signed on to Gaia this evening, my ex was on, confirming the trade for me to return some things he had spent all of his gold on to get me. I'm not about to be a b***h and keep it all. I'm not like that. I hope that even though he doesn't even care that I'm gone, that he appreciates me returning all those things. I could very well just keep it all and sell it for my own profit. Lucky for him, I'm not like that.
Also, as I write this, i realize that I miss him like crazy. I miss him, and yet I never want to speak to him again. I fear that that would cause me to fall in love again.
And I hate to sound like a drama queen. I'm surviving without him, and I will continue to survive without him. I'll just continue with a piece of my heart missing. I won't get it back, but I won't let it keep me from loving again.
I do miss him. If he would talk to me again however, I must admit that I wouldn't know what to say.
 Piratical_Nonsense_Youkai · Mon Sep 27, 2004 @ 03:32am · 0 Comments |
