I think I should feel happy, excited, and in love about what happened last night. I don't. I can't stand the fact that there's another girl, but hell, what am I going to do about it? And if he does like her, what am I to say about it? He deserves someone there; he's so great and could make any girl happy without trying too hard at all. I should be happy for him, I should smile and accept it. But I can't, and that's what drives me crazy. He doesn't deserve to deal with jealous me. I just love him so much, and I can't help but feel a bit scared when I think of everything we've done and think that it's all just going to be tossed aside. I've gone further with him than I have with anyone, ever. I don't want to lose that, but if it does happen in the end, what am I to say or do?
 Piratical_Nonsense_Youkai · Sat Oct 08, 2005 @ 12:29pm · 0 Comments |
