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Chapter 1: Ivy

What is a desicion? Is it something you choose to do, or something your heart chooses to do for u? I wasn't very sure then, but I knew I had found out ever since the day i decided to live. I find myself very thankful to have known these answers by this age. I dont think many young people know exactly wat a desicion is, but i will promise you that you will find out urself before u die. I wonder if Scott knows wat a desicion is. Well here's a little idea. Maybe if you read this story, my discovery, you can find answers, but not the same way as discovering it yourself. No, how about i say this, "maybe if you read this story, you can find hints to the answers." and only hints....
.:~ heart ~ heart ~:.

The bus was competely empty, only because we were the first stop, and my best friends Julia, Kristy, and I sat in the very seat 2 from the back, always.
"Guess wat?!" Julia said as soon as we sat down.
" What?" I asnswered.
"Someone has a crush on you!"
"Who me?!" I jumped.
"Her?" Kristy pointed with her long bony fingers that were painted sheek black.
"Yeah!" Julia smiled, "He's in your 6th period class."
"Is he cute?" Kristy asked.
"I can't tell you, Ivy is gonna go out with him soon! It would be awkward to judge someone elses boyfrend."
"True..."
"Who is it?" I butted in.
"I can't tell you, I ankle swore not to tell."
" Oh, well if he's in my 6th period class, he wont be to hard to narrow down."
I could tell, they were so excited for me. But what can i tell them when i knoe for sure I'm not allowed to date. I can't say yes if he asks me out.
My mom has always been paranoid of the thought of me and boys. I asked her once if i could go to this camp over the summer one time, and immidiately she said,"NO i dont think so, there will be lots of boys." I didnt understan wat was wrong with that. I mean, i knoe wat she was thinking, but i call that mistrusting your own child.
So asking my parents for help can't be and option, but if i ask my frends they'll think i'm a nuisance, they'll treat me as a reject. No, I'll just have to keep it a secret. I know I'm taking a huge risk here, if my parents find out, I'll get everything taken away, my cute little cell phone, my widescreen laptop, my LIFE! Then I'll be sent to some all-girls private school and not get married til I'm 30. That's why it's a secret, and probably my biggest one yet.
Once i get off the bus I immidiatley rush to my first class to tell all of my frends. Chatter began to fill the room.
Honestly I didnt think anything like this would happen til i was 16. Well boy was i wrong. Nobody has ever liked me before. In fact, I've never even been good frends with a guy either. Actually, this year I've been making more frends, but most of them are guys. For some reason this makes me feel older, in other words, "past the cootie stage." I guess this means I'm ready to find out who this guy is.
Finally in 6th period I sit down and analyze the room. The guy I'm looking for obviously has to know and trust Julia. Then I turn and look behind me, and
there was Zack.....