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i wish my pain would leave i feel so emo i love my bf but sometimes they r not wat u need wat i need is the ability to understand wat is going on theres nothing to be sad bout yet i feel sad theres nothing to die about but right now i feel like death is the only way....... i am known as a happy and positive girl by many but i seriously say that im not i hide how i feel sure i laugh alot and thats cause its funny or i feel like it but it doesnt mean im not crying and stabbing myself over and over again u'll hardly ever see me cry but it doesnt mean i'm not i dont cut because i dont like to see my mum cry but it doesnt mean i dont want to or arent thinking of it...... music is my escape from it all thank god the ability to hear was created cause if it wasnt for music I WOULD BE DEAD