Well, first, before I start ranting, let's get a few things straight (because I noticed I never made any journal entries in a while -_-;; )
1. Breaking Dawn completely sucked! >:C
Not to mention, twenty minutes into the movie I felt like I could hang myself. So, now I can't stand Stephenie Meyer anymore (sorry to all of you Twilight fans)
But that's old news from months ago...
2. The whole "Going to Europe over the summer" thing got canceled because I decided to go to Japan instead--and that's THIS summer. So, though I might not be seeing Paris or London, I DO get to explore every inch of Tokyo 3nodding
Which, by me, is FARRR better than Europe (I've got a big thing for Japan...)
3. Myyearbook can kiss my a** for all I care right now >:C
I've already gotten hacked twice and it really pisses me off when I have to go break back into my own account and fix all the problems other people make.
4. For second semester classes, I'm all alone in a classroom full of people I've never met before and, believe me--I'm no good at making new friends! So the last half of junior year isn't going ANYWHERE so far (but it's almost over, so I'm trying not to let it get to me... stare )
...
ninja
Alright, now that I've gotten all of the past monthly issues out of the way, let me vent off my stress for what seems to be happening on TOP of all that.
Well, I don't spread this story around to most people, but basically I haven't seen my dad since I was... -stops and thinks-.... eight, I think?? I'll spare everybody the details on that messed up little story but, even though my dad's not exactly the most "popular" guy in my family, I still enjoy getting letters from him for my birthday and Christmas and whatnot.
I mean... he is my dad after all, right??
So, for a while, I wasn't getting any letters from him and I started getting kind of upset, but then I found out that my mom was either not giving them to me or just straight out throwing them away.
WTF??? scream
Aside from that, my mom has to bring her boyfriend over constantly (I can't stand that guy). So, while I'm staying up trying to study, they think it's cute to have a bit of fun--EVEN WHILE OUR WALLS ARE PAPER-THIN!
D:<
(And they wonder why my grades slightly dropped...)
So, aside from having my virgin ears become victim to such life-scarring events, I'm stressed out with all of the schoolwork that is continuously building (and it's getting pretty hard for the final quarter).
My one passion is writing and I do it EVERY DAY. You could say that it's like my self-therapy aside from hobby and, because of writing, I never complain about how much stress I'm going through because it almost seems worth it sometimes, but because I have to take time of now to do all of this new school work that I already don't have time to do, I have no spare time to write AT ALL.
Not to mention, we moved back to our old house across the river and didn't bother switching schools for me, so I have to get up at four in the morning and take a trip around the world to get to school on time. Then, we don't get home to usually nine or ten, so what am I supposed to do?
Let me just give everyone a head-warning: three to four hours of sleep isn't much different from being high (and I wouldn't even know anyway >___< )
I sleep through every class now and I'm missing a bunch (though I still have my grades at Bs at LEAST) and I don't think I'm quite ready for when final exams come around.
Also, my grandma just got out of the hospital for knee surgery and now I'm stressed with all the pain that she's in, but I'm doing the best I can for her =/
Honestly, I shouldn't even be ON Gaia because of all that's going on, but I need a break on the weekends or something before I go insane @.@
AKA::: God help me.
Ahhh, sorry for all of the complaints and fuming... but I really NEEDED to rant.
I know that there are people out there with problems much, MUCH more worse than mine and I also know that, somehow, things will turn out fine, but it's just really difficult right now.
-shrug-
Oh well, I feel better now anyway ^_^ lol
1. Breaking Dawn completely sucked! >:C
Not to mention, twenty minutes into the movie I felt like I could hang myself. So, now I can't stand Stephenie Meyer anymore (sorry to all of you Twilight fans)
But that's old news from months ago...
2. The whole "Going to Europe over the summer" thing got canceled because I decided to go to Japan instead--and that's THIS summer. So, though I might not be seeing Paris or London, I DO get to explore every inch of Tokyo 3nodding
Which, by me, is FARRR better than Europe (I've got a big thing for Japan...)
3. Myyearbook can kiss my a** for all I care right now >:C
I've already gotten hacked twice and it really pisses me off when I have to go break back into my own account and fix all the problems other people make.
4. For second semester classes, I'm all alone in a classroom full of people I've never met before and, believe me--I'm no good at making new friends! So the last half of junior year isn't going ANYWHERE so far (but it's almost over, so I'm trying not to let it get to me... stare )
...
ninja
Alright, now that I've gotten all of the past monthly issues out of the way, let me vent off my stress for what seems to be happening on TOP of all that.
Well, I don't spread this story around to most people, but basically I haven't seen my dad since I was... -stops and thinks-.... eight, I think?? I'll spare everybody the details on that messed up little story but, even though my dad's not exactly the most "popular" guy in my family, I still enjoy getting letters from him for my birthday and Christmas and whatnot.
I mean... he is my dad after all, right??
So, for a while, I wasn't getting any letters from him and I started getting kind of upset, but then I found out that my mom was either not giving them to me or just straight out throwing them away.
WTF??? scream
Aside from that, my mom has to bring her boyfriend over constantly (I can't stand that guy). So, while I'm staying up trying to study, they think it's cute to have a bit of fun--EVEN WHILE OUR WALLS ARE PAPER-THIN!
D:<
(And they wonder why my grades slightly dropped...)
So, aside from having my virgin ears become victim to such life-scarring events, I'm stressed out with all of the schoolwork that is continuously building (and it's getting pretty hard for the final quarter).
My one passion is writing and I do it EVERY DAY. You could say that it's like my self-therapy aside from hobby and, because of writing, I never complain about how much stress I'm going through because it almost seems worth it sometimes, but because I have to take time of now to do all of this new school work that I already don't have time to do, I have no spare time to write AT ALL.
Not to mention, we moved back to our old house across the river and didn't bother switching schools for me, so I have to get up at four in the morning and take a trip around the world to get to school on time. Then, we don't get home to usually nine or ten, so what am I supposed to do?
Let me just give everyone a head-warning: three to four hours of sleep isn't much different from being high (and I wouldn't even know anyway >___< )
I sleep through every class now and I'm missing a bunch (though I still have my grades at Bs at LEAST) and I don't think I'm quite ready for when final exams come around.
Also, my grandma just got out of the hospital for knee surgery and now I'm stressed with all the pain that she's in, but I'm doing the best I can for her =/
Honestly, I shouldn't even be ON Gaia because of all that's going on, but I need a break on the weekends or something before I go insane @.@
AKA::: God help me.
Ahhh, sorry for all of the complaints and fuming... but I really NEEDED to rant.
I know that there are people out there with problems much, MUCH more worse than mine and I also know that, somehow, things will turn out fine, but it's just really difficult right now.
-shrug-
Oh well, I feel better now anyway ^_^ lol
