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Back when Hurricane Katrina hit, that's when everybody started drifting away
(I can't believe that I was actually excited about it just because we got to get out of school for a month -_-)
My uncle moved to California with part of my family, my nanny got married and adopted a kid (no more time for me, I guess), my aunt is never there because she's always working and now she's planning to get an apartment ways off, I had to switch schools and leave all of my old friends behind, and my grandparents are going through a couple of struggles now that I can't get myself involved with.
I was pretty upset, but I eventually found ways to get over each of those, but then something else happened.
My cousin, my best friend, the person who I grew up with and played with when I couldn't make any other friends--he moved up to Tennessee about a year ago, I think.
That was a BIG bummer for me, but I did my best to keep in touch with emails and phone calls.
But it's still getting worse.
>______<
He's getting ready for college, just like I am, but he wants to get involved with the military.
He's been going to interviews and sending in all of these applications to all of these far-off colleges to get into military training and whatnot (I'm not exactly sure what they do, but meh...)
I'll always support him for his decisions and I'll never have to heart to object against it because it's what he really wants---but I'm really worried now.
I've been having dreams that something bad's going to happen to him.
Maybe it's paranoia, but I don't know what I would do if he went overseas to fight or something and ended up dying. Even if he got wounded, I would freak out. If anything ever happened to him, I don't know what I would do.
(I give myself goosebumps just thinking about it)
Aside from that, I have to admit that I just lost a very close friend as well.
He was like my best friend and I miss him, but I feel too selfish to try and apologize for something that was entirely my fault. I'll only end up hurting him some more--aren't I brilliant?
If he doesn't want me anymore, than I won't force myself in and make him hate me.
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Here's an emo blob (cause I really need one to make me feel better)
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