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Not in the best mood for it being a holiday, but I'll deal.
I've been rather frusterated lately. I've been trying to call a friend. I'll not specify a gender or name, because that would give away. Well, I've always been trying to call said friend. I called and left a message about a week ago, but they never called me back, even though I asked for it in the message. I consider this person one of the most important people in my life, and they are one of the people that I have known the longest in all my existance. They were my best friend in the world. And then, now that I'm all flabbergasted and angry and sad and depressed that it[they] won't call me back, and here I have a friend telling me around every corner that they're talking to it[them]. I just feel so alone, that the one person that I could trust the most won't even call me back, after living so far away after being my best friend in the world after being neighbors for as long as I've lived in the place I love! They're someone I can really count on, but now my respect for them is depleting by the day, and I'm really scared, because they were the only person I could ever talk to, even if they aren't really that good of a listener...
I feel so... so alone. More alone than I've ever felt before, and it's deatheningly frightening that one person turning their back on me could do that to my head.
... But anyway. Sorry to bother you all with that little rant of impending doom.
AND NO RANDOM GUESSES IN HERE, BECAUSE THAT WOULD RUIN EVERYTHING, AND THEN I WOULD BE VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY, VERY ANGRY AT WHOEVER GUESSED!
... So, yeah.
Well, I just got back from driving around downtown DC, giving homeless people a turkey dinner. It felt really good, but if you feel good while you've got something on your brain, it really defeats the purpose, mm..?
 [.Rikocette.Echoes.] · Fri Nov 25, 2005 @ 04:24am · 4 Comments |
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