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The rain poured heavily on my dark colored shirt. My shirt stuck to me like a second layer of skin. It sunk into all the cuts on my back. I couldn't even notice because my back was frozen as were my hands. I covered my hands in the sleeves on me shirt. My green eyes did not want to see the blood of all the doctors from the unit. Everything seemed to blur around me, all I could see was that black gun that I killed them all with. My long legs extended over to the gun and shot into a puddle near me.
The puddle I was sitting in, seemed to get deeper and deeper by the minute I sit here. I was breathing heavy. I wrapped both of my arms around both of my knee's.
<i> I can't believe I did that... </i>
<i> How could he do that to me...</I>
<i> He made me do it...</i>
I can't fully blame him for it. I had my part in it. My plan was just to protest against it, but no he insisted on killing them. My mind just flew, I can't believe someone like me actually did that. There goes all my future jobs, just wait till the cops come after us. Everything in my life will be ruined. I'll lose everyone around me, my mother will hate me, my father will as well. Everything will crumble around me.
The devil on this plan will not lose anything, I hear he lost everything when he was younger, his family, friends... everything. He probably isn't feeling as guiltily me. He must have a grin on his hideous face. There is just some odd thing about him and I. I seem to feel as he feels, even if there not the same emotions as me. I just know he is feeling like that. I know also know not only how he is feeling, but when were near each other I just get the feeling that he is around me. It's weird...I've only meeted him last week and yet it seems like we known each other since birth.
I laied my body down in the puddle. I could care less if I was covered in mud by the time I'd go home. If I ever got to go home. I don't want to see the reaction that my parents well give me when they find out I destored a lab.It'd be quite a painful reaction.
I can see how it's work. I'd go home know and my parents would be sitting on the couch watching one of there favorite shows on tv. I'd walk in half dead and bleeding. My mother would hear me and walk over to me and greet me like she always does. Although she'd put an arm around me, and ask what happened, instead of welcome home. I'd tell her everything. She would start to cry. My father would come in and give me a look like why'd you do that? I'd shake my head and wrap a muddy arm around my mother. She'd be scared of me and push me aside. I'd just look at her and dad, as they both have tears in there eyes, and woundering what in the world happened to me.
From there it'd just be nonsense to talk about, I'd rather just leave it at that.
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My eyes opened slowly. There was a bright light comming from the window next to me. I looked around the unfamulair room. I painiced, where was I? Had the cops fine me?