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Totay is the one year anniversary of me and Joe meeting and I realized... I really miss him. This is the first time since he broke up with me that I felt this way... but I miss him... I was so different back then. So young. So happy. I miss those days. The care-free days. I thought the world was perfect. Ignorance is Bliss, I suppose. I'm crying as I write this. I wonder why I am so upset. Do I miss him, or do I miss my happiness? I'll probably never know. Am I honestly this lonely? Could I really miss someone who only lusted for me? Someone who manipulated me? Used me? Has my depression and solitude manifested itself into affection for that man? Why can't I be happy? Someone, please love me. Someone, please save me.