Well here I am, on Christmas eve..Not much going on at all today...
No letters from Christina at all today, but I still wrote to her..it kind of disappoints me to not get anything from her today though...I hope she got my letters though at least...
I made cookies today, but somehow it reminded me of Christina...-sigh- then again everything seems to do that nowadays...maybe it's the fact that she used to love doing that for me..and we even did it together once...
Today feels so normal...All these times of the year that are supposed to be so festive and so great are just seeming to be so normal lately...It's like I can't even feel it anymore...
I'll be happy tomorrow though...If only for those short three hours...but for that three hours, I'll be in heaven..with her in my arms...just like it was always meant to be...
She told me about going to Westmont soon in one of her letters...I really hope that's true, because if it is, there's finally that shimmer of light at the end of such a long dark road...and it's finally within reach...it can finally happen..we'll finally be together...Forever...just like we were meant to be...
I hope you don't forget me while you're there Christina...Please don't let go of me...I know what they're saying to you, and I don't believe that at all...Don't break away...we need each other..that's how it's always been...just you and me...
The entire world is expecting us to fail because of the sorry state it's in, and your therapist is no different by telling you that...I refuse to allow us to go that way...You and I will last, we will be together, forever and ever, just like I promised you..
Soon Christina...very soon...you'll be in my arms again, if only for that short time...and that's all the present I need this year...
I love you Christina...<3
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 II Xero II · Fri Dec 25, 2009 @ 02:46am · 1 Comments |
