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a life saved, another lost
a friend of mine (name withheld) was, when i met her, a very cheery and happy person. But now i have known her for about a year. and things definatly changed. She began thinking suicidally and was under a deep depression. recently(like yesterday) she was telling me about how its too much, and she was going to hang herself. she had never told me why she was depressed, so i was trying to figure it out so maybe i could stop her. she didnt deserve to die, she was a great person. eventually i convinced her to tell me what was wrong with her, and of course, it turned out to be something stupid. ._. she was gonna kill herself because she didint know if she still liked her boyfriend. yes thats all. aparently she was an idiot. or rather, is an idiot.so of course i told her how stupid she was being, using a few colorful words. fun! and she took it upon herself to try to get out her depression. she is now doing much better,but i think she needs a therapist. nah ima joking. anyways, it leads me to think about the outcome had i not been there. would she have really killed herself? my brain ponders this as i sit with her the next day. i ask her would she have really done it? she told me yes. she was actually going to do it the night i told her how stupid she was being. so i tell her i saved her life,and laugh. she laughed too. but there was no humor in her laugh. she was still depressed. i could tell. sometimes you can tell with someone u know well. i knew she would do it. i took her belts from her closet when she went to get us a soda, and put them in my bag. the following week, the break was over, and i talked to her over the phone. she was mad i took her belts, but all the same she was grateful. she told me she talked to her parents and they helped her sort it out. i knew she was over it. i sent her belts back. so apparently i saved her life. but she texted me nonstop for about 3 months after that, so there goes my life. its pretty much over
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