I wanted so bad to believe you
I wanted to believe that we would be friends forever
I wanted to believe that I would always have you
But then you told me you don't care
You told me you're not really my friend
And you were so mean
The words you said to me
Killed me
Too bad that's only metaphorically
At moments I wish they actually had
I wish I didn't have to be here
But then I think about my girlfriend
I think about how much I love her
And how much I need her in my life
Just as she says she needs me
And it makes me wonder
Why does it hurt me so much that you lied
when you said you cared?
Why does it hurt me so much
When you practically said you're not my friend anymore?
Why does it hurt me so much
Knowing that we can never be close again?
Why does all of that hurt so much
When I have the most amazing person in my life still?
Why do I care so much about you
When you can hurt me without giving yourself a scratch?
And it's like you don't even want me happy
You tell me that I deserve better
But the trught is
No matter what you might think
You are not better than her
You're note ven close
She cares about me
She loves me
She tries her hardest not to hurt me
You on the other hand
Don't do any of those things
YOu don't care
You don't love
You don't try
So why would I ever for one second
Believe that you and I have a future together?
Deep down I don't think I ever did truly believe that
Because I know who I want
And I know who wants me
But I still can't bring myself to hate you
I can't bring myself to leave you for good
We have too big of a past for me to just leave it all behind
And the truth is
I can't bring myself to stop caring
I wish I could stop more than anything
I wish I could go through the rest of my life without thinking of you
But I can't
Which makes it eve harder on me
To know that youd on't care anymore
I can prented that I don't care about you
All I want
Because I know I will never prented hard enough
And that makes me mad
Why is it so hard for me to prend that I don't care
When it's so easy for you to pretend that you do?
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