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Who knew having a broken heart hurts so much?

I know the reason why we broke up, but still it hurts so much. It's like having your life being ripped out and stomped on. One moment you're having the time of your life, then, you receive what you have always thought wouldn't be possible....Your breakup. We broke up over the phone. And I quickly wanted to hang up and go cry. I felt like I just wanted to curl up into a ball and just hibernate for the rest of my life. But after I started to feel better, I called up my three best friends and arranged dates to see them. (I still haven't been able to see my lifelong best friend for awhile. But I got to see a very good friend of mine that I've known since kindergarten. It was the first time we ever hung out that wasn't considered a "play-date"! I had so much fun and was able to get my mind...straighter. Now today I get to see another one of my good friends. I want to spend as much time with my friends as possible. I don't want to remember about how bad I feel. It's best to just move on, try to have the best time of your life. He was my first boyfriend. I never knew you could love someone so much. And have so much fun, I never even thought that any guy would want to date me. And see the true "me" inside. But now it feels as if that happy "me" is shattered, felt as if that part was just a cracked sheet of glass...that then shattered.