World revolves around and around so boring yet fun I guess. So much going on in this head and family. One day up most days down all depends either they'll speak to me or not. Mostly not Meh don't care I have lost all caring to my mother over these years guess it happens when she plays the worst mind games that drill into you and hurt. Can't even think without going over feelings which always ends me close to tears which is why I go around it yea not the best thing to do but it's better then having them asking whats wrong. Bottle things up I'm the best at that but it has it's breaking points not hard to guess where that leads. A couple go the ******** away moments no that's a lot and a few I'll stay inside room not come out. Complete isolation just what I need and best place for that is work cause no one there is family so in my mind it's complete isolation from them and I don't have to worry about a thing since I run on instinct which has proven itself very wisely in work. Conversation with people there is the most easiest thing ever no thinking evolve. Sooooooo.......yea I need time to myself big time super big time to collect my thoughts and feelings and what not. I get to talk to my daddy tomorrow which I have missed him soo freaking much.....s**t yea so that's it for today folks till next time ><
dbz_lalala · Tue May 03, 2011 @ 09:35am · 0 Comments |