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“They may forget what you said, but they will never forget how you threw a big tantrum because you couldn't step back from your emotions" =D
Edited articles of an emotional teenager.
My weakness
Everyone has at least a couple, but how often are they honest about them?


When asked what their weakness is, some say "I care too much" without really meaning it. But when I think about what my weakness is, I genuinely believe that "caring too much" comes into it.I'm willing to do so much for everyone else, but I don't feel that I ever get much in return. Because I try SO HARD to please a whole bunch of people I don't realize that some of the actions I take come off as stalker-ish

Once again, it comes back to that one person. I made her pictures and post formats and stopped whatever I was doing to cheer her up and hear her out - or just talk to her in general - whenever she needed it. And never told her I was busy even though I was entitled too. But that was just because I assumed she did the same for me and that it was "romantic." Yet as soon as I'm the one with a problem, she can't return the favour. Because she actually does the things she committed too first before dealing with other things, me included. I bought DS games just to play with her, I bought WoW and the subscription just to play with her. We watched her favourite movies, did what she wanted to do when she wanted to do it. But when the time came to watch my favourite movie, something always came up. Convenient, wasn't it? It didn't occur to be to ask her if we could do these things later and then hold her to it. Because I just felt so let down I thought "Why even bother!" *crawls in corner to cry* Yet she promised me over and over that she did want to watch it, and that we would. We never did. Because we never scheduled it. She promised me so much, and never came through for me. I must be insane or obsessed with hurting myself, because somehow I still have hope that she will make good on her promises someday. But I know now it will never happen, because I pushed her away with my delusional resentment. And now I'm paying the price.

So yeah, my weakness is clearly I have a mental problem because when someone says one thing I hear a completely different thing. And then I proceed to dig myself into depression over the "promises" they never keep.





 
 
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