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So how do I do normal
The smile I fake
The permanent wave of
Cue cards and fix it kits
Can't you tell I'm not myself.
I'm a slow motion accident.
Lost in coffee rings and finger prints
I don't wanna feel anything but I do.
And it all comes back to you.
~yawns~
Seems like I'm nothing but a big disappointment to the family. I'm the last one in Highschool. Besides Mikey who's still in Elementary. So...if I do graduate, and go onto college, which I'm planning on doing. I'll be the second in the family to do so. My older sister being the first. So, a lot is on my shoulders to be near god like perfect. And I can't do that. So, I'm a disappointment to my mom. And my stepdad laughs almost every day he sees me.
I mean, I know. I can do a lot better with my life. And I'm trying. But it's hard, especially when I've got so much in life, that they don't know about. I hate letting my mom down. And I wanna prove to Louie that I AM somthing not some punk who hangs on the streets. I don't smoke. And I don't drink. I'm ...slightly near healthy. And I do what I need to. But it's never good enough for him, because I'm not his kids. Nooo, his kids are perfect. Heh, she's only 13 and already having sex. He dropped out, and sells. And I'm a put down compared to them. Their gods. ~Sighs~ Why can't Na no put something happy in her Journal for once.
This emo stuff is really a big annoyance.
 [Na no da] · Thu Apr 06, 2006 @ 02:50pm · 1 Comments |
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