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" i wasnt a very open person but a shy one, it's never that easy to let myself be known because i trust the wrong people,

and it hurts like hell... knowing.. i wont find another like that anymore because they never felt what it's like to trust a person who already had their hearts broken before,

ive lived a saddening childhood, i'd told you that my first heartbreak changed how i lacked expressing myself towards you but i never had the chance to tell you the story

your first fews never showed you any right so you mustve thought i was also a silly person,

you were a strong person that moved on and kept everything held beneath your breath, you didn't spill your guts out but little by little to each other person who was willing to listen

though you were quite, you were also quite deadly, im not sure of what you see me as anymore but i hope im still a decent person

i dont know how much i can hold onto a fleeing heart but i can let it all go because i know im just not the perfect fit in this lifestyle, that i know you wont change your heart and since you told me to forget everything

i told you that you were perfect for me and you felt the same, i was dead serious because all i ever wanted was to have an impact on you before you completely remove me so that i can finally set my love to rest in peace

if i did had a lucky chance to live a life with you, i would always play it fair and i would only ask for two things in return; if after im gone, and youre sick and tired of my family, i want you to bare with it until my mother gets a proper burial and to see all my younger sisters get married, then you can divorce my family and take your freedom back

and you are right... i should stop living in the past because it'll just cause more anxiety when im older and forced to reminisce about everything that used to bring me happiness and kept me sane, one thing i wont let go is not giving the chance to show mama happiness with you

everything you said towards me... it's fine by me because you havent experienced your first true heartbreak or a few similar ones yet and with time, i hope you'll feel what i do now and i know when that time comes, my words and presence wont be the one youre thinking of

i say those things because my past is fogging up my predictions of the future and im only gonna turn mad crazy so i wanted to cherish everything now before my sanity goes away for good

A broken heart can only have so much to say.....

for the heartless people out there... shame on you "