I lost yet another friend last night. But for some reason it doesn't hurt as bad as I thought it would. Am I becoming numb to the pain? I don't want to be numb...I don't want this change. I know that this is all my fault I have to have done something to deserve this. I wish someone could make the pain go away. I really hope that all is not lost for me. I hope that I can find someone to love me....I know that will never happen I'm not worth anyone's love I must not be or else I wouldn't be alone right now. Make me better please make me better. I beg of you I don't want to be alone anymore. I'll die if I'm alone .....
