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6:36 AM on the dot did I wake up this morning.
My eyes still feel like they are composed of glue. lol
But I figured I'd log on and see whats up before I have to disconnect soon.
Yestardays news update is:
Well Yestarday went rather smoothly aside from the fact my older brother had proven his lack of inteligence. He needed to get his car inspected so he could drive it around without the police nipping at his behind. Sadly enough that operation was a failure because he refused to realize that he could have blackmailed the people whom he had an appointment with into inspecting his car. Thing is they had an appointment with him but laughed in his face saying that they were booked when he got there.
Either he was lying or they were.
Career Forcast:
After seeing how simple the car window glass peoples job is and how carefree they were I've decided perhaps a mobile job would be more sufficient for one such as myself. I am the type of guy that sees authority as a threat rather then a reassurance.
So having a boss looming over my back just isnt going to cut it.
Thoughts Revealed:
Yestarday I had a bit on my mind. My mother had gained news that my old " friend " 's account on myspace has been found. Notice the quotes right? Yeah Its almost a joke calling him my friend now. Age 12 ....Friendship gone sour. He tried to kill me and my family. The stress made my grandfathers cancer grew worse and he died from it. He had Melnoma or something like that kind of cancer. One question always hung over my mind. "Why?" Well hes got a wife and a kid soon to be a year old...Can you guess when?... All hallows Eve aka Halloween. How ironic is that for a guy who uses demons to assault people. It angers me to think about what he had done. Using the very curiousity that made me pure and corrupted it making it reach out to try and rip the soul from my flesh... The weak should have fallen but for some reason I lived back then. I ..I don't know if I should ask him. Establishing a link means opening up myself and also all I care about to him. The danger may have died down since then but do I want a round two?... Hopefully mom will be able to get my answer from him...A truthful one..
On Another note
I am deciding between my new symbol. A friend of mine gave me a talisman for last years birthday. Its supposedly the talisman of fire. Image hanging from it is a Serpant surrounded in flames and even the connection peice to the hanging piece is in the shape of flames. To me it seems almost like a vengeful symbol. Or a purifier. None the less I am unsure weather to remove my old symbol the Gothic interlocking heart surrounded in a thick black outline for that one. The reason this is such a tough choice is my symbol has been the same for the past three or four years. Its been my guidance and my protection. My strategy and my cures. Everytime I needed something I thought about what I've brought myself to represent. My current symbol is the gothic twisted black heart. To me it symbolizes Solitary... Cold...Thinking for ones self...Living how one can without interfering with others lives emotionally. Live and let die so to speak. Should I change it ?... Its a huge thing to me unlike most others I dont wear something unless I want it to send off a message.