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A Pathetic Girl
It has been forever and a half since I wrote a dream in here. I'll tell you why. I have had dreams that are heart sucking and soul burning and leave my empty and lonely. I have started having dreams that include sex and sickness and other things that are far too private to write about in this journal that nobody reads. I have frightening dreams. Not frightening in the usual sense, but dreams that end in lonliness. My dreams have little color, lately. I've been hiding from sleep, waiting for hours and hours in my bed until I am so tired of waiting for something real to happen that I drift into unconciousness out of spite. I can't seem to sleep anymore. I'm often taking pills to make me get to sleep before three in the morning, but the obvious side effect of medicinally induced unconciousness is no dreams.
Plus the fact that I forget. Pathetic, isn't it?
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