is it just me or does life seem rough to all 15 year olds? Seriously. I feel like there is so much going on..Too much. What with all of the school stuff going on right now. And guys...Theres a lot to wrap my head around
...I also feel like I'm not making my parents proud.
They've been asking me for months to clean my my room...and to do more school work but of course I'm me...lazy me. I know I should stop slacking but I guess I have no motivation to do what I have to. All I know is that I want to do these things. I guess I don't as t it bad enough huh? Or else I would have my s**t in order. I guess I wouldn't get yelled at so much too. *sigh* I guess it's time I started being more responsible for what has to get done. And doing more Than just sitting around on Gaia all day.
Okay so I sound a little.....childish. Maybe my mom was right when she called me an incapable 15year old... Even thought that was three weeks ago I think it finally made it to my brain.
Okay yaknow what. Starting today I'm going to start really focusing on my schoolwork. I have to really do it and get it done so I am. Able to go back to school with my friends next year. Though now.....I'm not sure I want to go to school. I mean yeah I want friends...but what if I start failing again! I'm doing so well now. Today I got one question wrong on my freaking test. Whitch is so good. And I'm so happy. Maybe I should keep doing the home schooling...I have a 3.5 GPA!!! For a change. Which is really good for me. Idk... I gotta think I guess.
And now I have to get back to class. Now that I'm done with my actual school work for the day I have my math class for the exit exams to do. Meeeeeh not looking forward to it hah.
Peacee
EDITTT
Gah! Im so done with thinking for today. School was long and the math class was boring but yet interesting because i felt like i was actually getting some of it. There was a lot to go over though. All of which ive learend. There were only 4 of us in the class but what was really sad....I kept answering while others kept quiet and didn't know the answers. For a change i felt like i was actually smarter....Math is my worst subject. That and History. But im getting it slowly. This class will hopefully help me a lot.
I really hate that school has always been such a struggle for me. Its really hard when you see people doing better than you...its embarrassing. I blame my first grade teacher. We never got to the other half of the work we were required to do. So i blame it all on her.....
On a much lighter note.
IM HAPPY! Yay me!
Someone finally accepted my apology! So that made my day.
Im so tired though and its only 5.......
 Drop-Dead-Dinosaur · Tue Dec 02, 2008 @ 08:47pm · 0 Comments |
