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As a hand trembles across the lonely page of reality the darkness ripples past. No longer lingering where these shackled feet stand, fear is lifted and air can fill my lungs once more. This air is not clean though, it is filled with warning and caution. I know that this moment of confusion, this moment of a good kind of weakness will only bring pain. Not to just me but to everyone around me. My barrier is going to fall apart... and a glimpse of truth will be seen once again. I am afraid. This chill running down my back is not the wind nor is it the cold rain, this whisper to me is something I never expected. I never thought I would face this. Foolishly I tried to force false beliefs in my head only to witness the inevitable. And still now I quiver at the thought. I feel fear, uncertainty, and dejected... but I feel something else or at least I want to believe there is something else. It teases me to a point where it is excruciating but that doesn't matter. Like always we are left with a choice now it's time for me to make yet another. I stand on two ends of the road and even though I know I will only end up where I am now I'm going to attempt to take my first step to happiness. I'm not going to make the obvious choice and do the right thing, no not by far will I be doing good. I am purposely making the wrong decision. With a smirk on my face once again I will play with life and take the part as the innocent child lost in the world. It is my favorite game because the world is my playground and I manipulate the other pieces. By doing this I know I bring my own destruction and I know that I am testing Fate by playing God.