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So, I was reading a friend's journal and I suppose it prompted me to write something in my own. I guess you could say that I'm pretty well-known in certain parts of Gaia. Namely, Abyss and Leaf. Yeah, some of you will say that Leaf is dead. But, for me, Leaf can never die. It's like...a home. Those of you who don't understand why I say this will probably never understand me. Anyhow, as many people that there are who claim to know Nette...I can honestly say that only a handful of them do. And then, even of those very few, there is only one person that I've shared things about myself that I've never shared with another. Anyway, I guess the whole point of this entry is just to...I don't know...express how I feel about these people who have allowed me to become their friend. While I may not use everyone's names, they know who they are simply through past conversations.
My UFO: Truly, my muse more times than not. He's also my music dealer. Almost like a drug dealer, but not really. My music comes from him. I could probably write an entire journal entry about this person, but I won't...just because I don't want him to read it and become upset with me. What else can I say about this friend? Well, I met him nearly two years ago in Leaf. Back then, we were about as noobish as we could get. Our writing was horrendous, as proven by the trip down memory lane that we took rather recently. We didn't actually start hanging out with each other until about a year ago, give or take a few months. At first, I had always thought he was an a*****e. Granted, he can be. >_> But, truly, he is one of the most intelligent, thoughtful, eloquent people that I have ever met. I have had some of the most profoundly deep conversations with him. His capacity for love is mind shattering. When I watch the females that are fortunate enough to date him, I do admit, I am extremely jealous. If I could have just but a minuscule amount of that love.... And then, when I watch them obliterate his heart, I become so utterly angry. I cannot, for the life of me, understand how a person can be so cruel to someone who so willingly gives his entire being to that person. My own heart breaks when his is torn. -Le sigh- I know, I sound so cliche. Anyway, I would much rather have his friendship than nothing at all. Again, cliche.
My Completely Platonic Lover. This woman has the ability to brighten up my mood and lighten the heaviness of my heart. We've spent so much time together, just hanging out and talking, that honestly, sometimes it feels like we're dating....just without the fights, drama, and jealousies. Yes...I'm absolutely 100% straight. But...sometimes she makes me....wonder. -shrugs- I don't know. I just know that our friendship is more important to us than "dating". I mean...if we dated...and s**t didn't work out....Well, yeah...you know how that ends.
Kitty: I met Kitty when Sky first brought me to Leaf. Always kind, always smiling, always ready to pull out the claws and go to bat for me. I remember the first time she called me on the phone. It was 7 am and I was half asleep when I answered. Her voice was almost like...well, picture a rainbow and a field of lollipops, add in a waterfall, a bottle of bubbles and some chocolate and well...that's what Kitty sounds like at 7 am. I'm not a morning person at all, but....Kitty makes mornings tolerable. Her personality is addictive, too. I remember getting upset with her, probably for some trivial thing, but her reactions...never offensive...she just..smiles and waits for me to finish with whatever rant I'm on and then she's like, "Mew? Kitty luvs joo." And it's all over....who can be mad at that? But, when I'm having problems with someone...I can't tell her...unless I want said person dead. >_>
Nick: AKA Nigguman. My third "husband" on Gaia. Met him in Leaf. He pretended to be some mysterious assassin who had bounties out on me and a couple friends. That was some very epic lulz now that I think about it. Nick allowed me to break out of my "shyness" shell and encouraged me to role play. Until then, I had always just sat back and watched everyone else do their thing, always too embarrassed to participate. Without him, I don't think I ever would have started. Anyway, we married for the gifts of it...and the shits and giggles. But, truly, he is an awesome friend that I've been fortunate enough to have. And, believe it or not, the best Gaia husband I've had. How's that for random? Oh, and when we're on the phone....he makes me laugh so hard that I nearly piss my pants, gotta put him on hold and run to the bathroom just so that I don't.
Cookie Man: Ok...where my UFO is my music dealer...this guy is my cookie dealer. I'm sure most of you know who he is....his reputation for handing out the finest cookies available online is world renown. Anyway, it shames me to say that I haven't really spent a lot of time getting to know this person. But, he gave me such tremendously thoughtful advice at one point in time where I was feeling rather....low. So, I appreciate that, and still consider him to be a friend. Plus, his cookies always cheer me up.
Pakers: I only recently started talking to this person off Towns. It's with deep regret that I haven't spent more time with her before now. She seems to be an amazingly friendly, gifted, warm-hearted person. Also, she is the only known source for Nette fan pins. I look forward to getting to know her better and already consider her to be a friend.
WoP: Even though he's left Gaia, from what I understand, I still consider this guy a good friend. He makes me laugh, cheers me up when I am down, and is so unbelievably intelligent. I'm almost always left in utter awe whenever we talk. -Le sigh.- I miss you, WoP.
Greatsword ****** Elf: I can remember sitting with him in 8 of Leaf or 9 of Abyss and just reflecting on all the people surrounding us that made us just......Yeah. Always ready to offer up a hug if I needed one. This guy has such an awesome view of life, and somehow, I believe, he doesn't realize just how awesome he is. Just when I'm at the point of giving up, he pops in and is like, "No. You can't." And, I just feel better.
There used to be others. But, I guess when you're not in Towns to be in their faces, they kinda tend to drift away and you realize who your friends really are. Sure, I keep in contact with them, occasionally. Like, when they're having problems with their significant other and just need someone to rant to, or when they're in between relationships and need someone to lift them out of that heart-ache depression. I'm good for that, I suppose. Being there....when needed. And knowing when to make myself scarce when I'm not needed. Sometimes, I feel used. A lot of times, I feel used. It's sad, really.
I know that there's a lot of people that don't believe friendships can be formed online. Or there are those who distinguish friendships formed online and friendships formed offline. For me, honestly, friendships that are formed online have the potential to become deeper and more real than any that could possibly be forged offline. Why? Lacking the physical presence of a person allows you to get to know someone on a mental and emotional level in ways that you never could otherwise. There are also those who distinguish a difference between online and real life. As if those you meet aren't real people? It is so easy for people to become desensitized when dealing with people online. But, for the most part, there are some fairly decent human beings on the other end of this electrical highway that brings us together. I think we forget that all too often.
Much love
<3 Nette
 Eilaria · Tue Sep 01, 2009 @ 07:31pm · 0 Comments |
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