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It’s an everyday battle
Even though it only started
I know that from now on
I’ll wake and tears will form in my eyes
Without her
Something is missing
Something isn’t right
She says she’ll come back if I need her
But what she doesn’t understand is that I do need her
I need her now
Injuries, death
That isn’t what marks the feeling of need
I need someone to talk to
To share my joy
My uninteresting moments
And my heartbreak
I need to know that someone else cares
If I lose my girlfriend
I’ll have no one
If she really cared
She wouldn’t have left me
She wouldn’t have been able to leave without a mark
She wouldn’t have been able to stab me several times
And then just leave me here to bleed
I don’t think there will be a day in my life
That I don’t wonder
What if
If we didn’t make the mistake of questioning
If I didn’t show her my belly and back
If I didn’t love her and care for her
Would she still be here?
Would I still have my best friend by my side?
Or would it not have mattered?
Did she never care about me?
Did she never love me?
Will I ever get her back?
I hope so
I really, really do