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Things were going well in life despite the heart-breaks due to my ex-boyfriend, Craig, and then after his birthday (September 28, 2010), when he turned 21, everything fell apart as October came along. All of my friends decided to use me, betray me, attack me, and turn away, and now I only have two friends in the world. My best friend, Brittany, and my new friend, Michael. I can't call Craig one cause I'm in love with him still, despite the truth that we were in three relationships together.

All right, anyone not wanna be my friend anymore? Fine! Despite I'm always alone nowadays, and this "curse" is getting in the way of my happiness, why should I have friends if I care for them and they don't for me? I'm tired of being pushed around, ignored, and treated like a piece of crap, just cause a few people turn away then everyone else does. I'm afraid of losing my two friends now, and who knows? Maybe it's best to go off without friends, cause for the past 10 days, all of my other friends have left me, and if I was left too, maybe I would be this emotional.

Friends are suppose to be there for each other and support each other, no matter what, and if that's not possible, then what's the point of having a friend if you suppose them and they completely ignore you? And afraid of me being left alone? I'm already alone! crying