is wanting to SI so early in the morning a bad thing?
it's ten a.m. and I really wanna cut really deeply into both of my wirsts and see what happens......nothing would really happen cause they wouldn't be paying attention to me anyways unless it was to yell or piss me off.
I feel so suicidal and pissed at this ******** world right now that it has gone beyond what I'm used to.
I'm gonna start fasting after today,I would have started today but I have my reason for being here to make happy.
after that I wanna fast.
I've purge several times this week,one of the last times I actually got some red things out when I puked and I'm hoping it wasn't blood cause I didn't eat nor drink anything red so I'm a bit worry about that but the omelet I purged on wed didn't have anything red when I was purging so it may have been a false alarm.
whatever,I just stopped caring again.
 yamiruri · Fri Jun 09, 2006 @ 03:08pm · 1 Comments |
